| "Pray Until Something Happens" |
Three years ago, when my dad died, I gathered up every single thing that was precious to me and hid it from the Lord. It's like my faith is gone. I want to give him all of me. But I'm terrified to the point of darkness. I lay in bed last night, and Jesus spoke to me. Not in a still, small voice. No, in a voice so strong that he could be heard loud and clear. "When are you gonna trust me again?" He asked.
The thing is, I've tried. But I'm overwhelmed with fear. A paralizing fear that if I trust him with my children, my husband, myself...that he will take them from me. So, I have surrounded myself with distractions to drown out his voice. But last night, he came looking for me. And finally, I answered. It was in a small voice, but still, I answered. My answer was, "I sure hope so. Could you just show me how?"
I haven't received an answer yet, so I've decided to wait....And get rid of my distractions. Until then, I'm calling for all the prayer warriors who know me, don't know me, etc. Lift me up unto the heavens, and ask the Lord to give me peace to allow him to move within me so that I might trust him again.
Song~ Stand Still
THE ISAACS
"The father has a plan. Though it's hard to see it now. You feel your walking all alone, but he is there no doubt. When the storm around you rages, and your tossed to and fro. When your faced with life's decisions, not sure which way to go.
Stand still, and let God move.
Standing still is hard to do.
When you feel you have reached the end, he'll make a way for you.
Stand still, and let God move.
When the enemy surrounds you, and the walls are closing in. When the tide is swiftly rising, and you wonder where he's been. Friend there never was a moment, that his arms weren't reaching out. You can rest assured and be secure God is moving right now.
Stand still, and let God move.
Standing still is hard to do.
When you feel you have reached the end, he'll make a way for you.
Stand still, and let God move"
