I feel it....the sadness...the overwhelming knowledge that,
If I picked up the phone and dialed your number, you wouldn't be there...
Even more so, that someday, my own children might do the same.
I miss you...with every breath.
I have learned from losing you.
How to lean on him when I need strength.
He's more than you every could have wished for me.
He provides.
He loves me.
He loves our children...
He's you...in many ways... he's you.
It's hard to stand sometimes.
On my own.
Sometimes I am unsure of myself,
Of the decisions I've made.
I wonder... "What would he have me do? Is this the right decision?"
But I know that life continues...
We live, we die, and sometimes we get it right.
I hope I'm getting it right.
I'm learning in your absence.
To lean.
To trust.
To breathe.
It isn't easy, but breath by breath, step by step, I am learning.
~Song~ (Switchfoot)
Learning To Breathe
~This Song Always reminds me of you....
